My first awareness of Soul came to me at the age of 8 when I looked up at my parents and saw two masks with nothing inside. As a child, what could I do with this information? Nothing! So I quickly turned my attention to other things and went on my way. It wasn’t until my debilitating eating disorder caused me to search for ways to heal that I became deeply embedded in the awareness that I myself had inherited the pain my parents were unable to feel—the pain of not being connected to their life-force, their Soul energy.

Through the years, as I ‘fixed’ my relationship with food and became a ‘normal eater,’ I noticed that I simultaneously struggled with deep feelings of emptiness and despair. Something inside of me shunned the thought of ‘fixing’ these feelings with anti-depressants and because I had a major awakening in my early twenties I felt guided to pursue a path of deep healing instead. Forty years later, I am grateful that I did.

The healing I have undergone and the immense ability to persist to discover the wholeness that IS ME, is paying off tremendously now on so many levels. My ability to be Present, Awake, and to LOVE is enormous. My intuitive and creative gifts are continuing to expand and my ability to engage with Life is immensely fulfilling and gratifying. I am aware of each moment as a blessed gift and life itself is giving me experiences that only a few adventurous souls would ever be privy to.

As I contemplate the progression of my life I am aware that the gift of joy and love that I now possess has grown directly out of the emptiness of my earlier years. And I understand what it takes to transmute that kind of emptiness into a state of great inner wealth and fulfillment. I also understand that when this happens, the Soul of Womanhood is restored not just for me but for others.
What is the Soul of Womanhood? My experience is that there is a way that Feminine energy operates that is very different than Masculine energy. In most women this feminine system has been wounded. We have been born into a masculinized culture and many of us have also been wounded by men who were unconsciously angry because of their own wounded masculine.

When men hurt women, women disconnect from what is primal to their feminine essence. This disconnection causes an emptiness so deep and broad that nothing will ever satisfy woman again, not until this emptiness is fully felt, understood and identified.